Growth isn’t linear, for adults or for children. Some days life flows and you’re riding the waves and enjoying the sunshine. Other days you’re sucked in the undertow and the waves are crashing on top of you, lungs filled with sand and salt water. I have definitely been under the waves lately. Feeling the victim, feeling powerless, grasping for control and full of unmet expectations. Too much anger and hopelessness. Natural, normal, necessary, but never pleasant. I am back on my surf board now with the sunshine on my shoulders. Cleansing tears, deep conversations, self-care, and a few directional changes. I feel good, I feel purged, I feel connected to my husband and my children and my life again.
I am thankful.